Thoughts

I titled this "thoughts" for a reason. It is just that, it is my thoughts and blogging for me is like a diary except it is out there and available for all to see. It is also a way for me to voice my opinion and the option of "Freedom of Speech". If you do not like it then do not read it!
These last few days have been full of huge amounts of sadness.  Today I attended my great Uncle Floyd's funeral, It was also the funeral of a dear sweet lady Margaret. I could not be in two places at once so she was on my mind all day. I went to Fairmont with my sister and nephew. It was so good to see my cousins, meet little Cooper for the first time and enjoy Randy's humor. Great laughs and a great time. We ate at a fabulous Mexican restaurant enjoyed each others company and took a few pictures. Can't believe how much Ethan and Emily have grown. This is a picture of me, Dawn, Brenda and Trish.

A day off of trying to get things done was much needed but it is back at it tomorrow. Mulch to get down,veggie garden to check hope it is still there,painting to do and deliver some items I sold.
As I have said the sadness just doesn't want to end, no I am not depressed it has just been one bad thing after another. When i was dealing with depression my therapist would say to remove yourself from what or whom is bothering you, try a journal,or do something you really love. I have done all of that ,it just keeps flowing in someone shut the sadness door and do it now. 
 I was brought up Catholic, I am not a good Catholic now,but I still pray! In the eyes of some because I don't go to church I am bad. Just because I do not go to church does not mean I am a bad person. I still believe in God,I pray and I am thankful everyday. I love life, just wish things were a little better, happier, and easier. I know life was meant to be a challenge and it is what you make of it. But I am ready for things to have a little light in it.

So tonight as I go to bed I am praying for the two who were buried today. God bless your souls! The little boy who lost his best friend in life, the love and companionship of the best friend on earth that has 4 legs and my best friend ever a dog. A friend who lost her mother. A young mother who received devastating news today no mother should hear! All things that bring deep sadness back into my world as my heart aches for them and my tears flow for them! So I pray that God will give them strength, warmth and courage to get through this tough time. That guardian angels will embrace them with a sense of well being and hugs. I pray that we all awake to a better, less painful day. Blessings to all!